Its has been ages since i last blogged. Someone said I should blog and since I'm free then why not.
Something came to my mind again. I have been thinking about this for a long time. Which is how long can I live my life as it is now? For 19 years of breathing, playing, learning and rotting, is finally the time I think about my future. What kind of life should I lead? How can I live happily? And for what reasons to live? I don't have a healthy body to begin with. I should live as long as I can.
The thing that came to me again is my parents. How much time do I have with them? Only god knows. They went to China today, and I drove them to the airport. I know they will be back in just a week's time. But i can't help thinking that one day they will be gone, forever. And just by thinking, my heart hurts. In their room I saw a photo of them, my mum and dad. Which I had never bother looking at until today.
Few months ago I started working with my dad. Traveling with him around the country, understanding the way he works, the hardship he is going through and the things I never knew, which is his determination. My dad didn't even complete his Primary 1 education and yet he is able to support us with a average kind of life better than some people. As for my mum, my relationship with her has been very close. I even share secrets with her sometimes. We watch television programs every night. Because I want to spend more time with them. As much as I can. Sitting together, as a family, which never last forever.
I want to be their son as long as god allows me to. As I go further and deeper, the feelings of not willing to leave gets stronger. I know I have to overcome this someday and I have to. This is just the way of life. I love them, the ones that brought me to this world, a part of them, and carrying their blood.
They may be annoying, irritating, naggy and there are times when I wish they had disappear. But no matter what, I still cry when they are no longer around, no matter how much I hated them for whatever reasons. No matter how useless I am, they still loves me. They give me the best they have, they open up door ways for me and they sacrifice their time for me to grow. This is how noble parents are. The moment they had me, our hearts and life are joined together, for life. They cry too when they leave and so will I. And they never stay long, I have to treasure the time i have now before its too late.
Rainbow is beautiful but it doesn't last. Just like our life.
I love you daddy and mummy. Pls take care over at China.
LOL! Okay.. Dunno what to do liao.. Later going Compass Point to buy our food supply with deardear.. I will be DRIVING there.. LOL! Now I think I should go take a nap.. Continue again tonight..
*make a dream, dream about that dream and fulfill that dream.*
